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Gone are the slow days of summer.

I close my eyes in traffic and imagine the Oaks in Big Sur

reaching their long limber arms out to me

and I rest in that.

I close my eyes and remember that I am breathing,

that my feet are on the ground.

I feel gravity holding me. I feel the dance of the spheres in the sky.

But gone are the slow days of summer.

Tension fills the graduate school classroom where I sit.

I close my eyes and feel the wet hot air of Thailand.

I taste the cold mango shakes made with love on top of a mountain.

I keep my eyes closed and I imagine walking through the gardens at Esalen,

hearing the soothing roar of the ocean, the piercing of crickets

singing their songs to the stars.

I remember the hot springs, how I looked over the cliff

and knew there was nothing to be afraid of.

But gone are the slow days of summer.

I close my eyes while writing a paper and I see the faces of my friends.

I hear the sounds of their laughter and I smile my big smile.

I open my eyes and I feel the weight of the words on the page.

I feel the weight of the day pressing down on my shoulders,

slamming my body into my feet, holding me down against my will.

I feel stuck.  I feel trapped.

There’s a calm song inside me that wants to be played.

There’s a soothing voice that wants to be heard.

But often I can’t hear it.

Because gone are the slow days of summer.

I close my eyes in meditation.  I remember who I am.

I see how easily I get caught up in the show,

dragged down by the current.

I remember that the weight I feel is a product of my own mind.  It’s not real.

And once again I feel gravity gently holding me in place.

I feel my feet planted firmly on the ground.

I hear the sounds of the city through my window.

But there’s no story to them.  They’re just sounds.

I feel the dance of the spheres in the sky.

I take my one seat on the ride,

and smile my big smile.

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